A New, New Year’s Eve
It probably goes without saying that 2013 is going to be a big year for us. As 2012 comes to a close in less than an hour, I’m sitting in our temporary Chicago home wondering what the next 12 months has in store for us. Will it be what we’ve imagined and dreamt about? Will it be better than that? Or, will we realize life as we knew it was good enough?
A random bout of sickness has kept me in bed for most of Dec. 31. It may be the first time I’ve stayed in for New Year’s Eve and it seems as surreal as the idea of taking a trip around the world. No party hats, glasses of Champagne or circle of friends. The upside is I’ve had all day (in between a marathon of Homeland Season 2) to really contemplate the coming year and evaluate my feelings on what is soon to become my new reality.
A comforting sense of calm – with only fleeting waves of nervousness – surrounds me most days. I mostly want to yell from the balcony, “let’s get on with it already!” It feels as though I’m closing one of my life’s chapters and being given a permanent marker to write the next one. It’s exciting and a bit scary, but mostly, it just feels right.
Our lives of just two months ago seem years away – commuting, sitting on conference calls, answering emails until my fingers were sore, wishing for something bigger – it seems so far in the distance.
2013 starts that something bigger. Here’s hoping it’s better than we are imagining.
Happy New Year! May your 2013 be filled with peace, good health, love, joy and happiness.